drownsoda4

i'm currently living somewhere else trying to settle in. i don't have my own computer so that's why i'm not posting anything. i apologize for feeling like im wasting this account; love to you

so i'm living in my new place now. it's a major huge change from my old noisy loathing house full of hands grabbing at my lanky arms. this place has no hands for grabbing, just hands for helping and that's a good thing to wake up to everyday. this city is apparently infested with ants since it's the hottest it's been in 27 years, which i add almost killed me when i walked out of the grocery store yesterday. i was breathing heat waves, it was scary! but anyways ants have randomly been coming in this house. i've maybe killed 20 inside the house so we got so many ant sprays and just sprayed everywhere outside. the man at the store told us th

my mind is overflowing once again. i leave on monday.. it's hard to believe that this is the last weekend i will spend here for one hell of a long needed time. i'm scared, lonely, excited, anxious. i'm just about everything i can possibly be feeling right now. these whole past two days have been emotional. today is a week kayla has been moved and it feels like months have flown by. it's so strange, and i think it won't hit me until i am actually gone myself. i watched the movie 'mysterious skin' today, and it brought up wayy too much in my head. amazing movie, but it's so fucking hard to watch. if you plan on watching it, be in some sort of